I'm Not Dead Yet

I’ve never had the chance to post anything these couple of months. I had been on the process of adjusting to a lot of things. Last January, during the start of the year 2010, I vowed to tweak my life up a bit. I planned to get a new and better job that would give me more security, and something that would give more credits to my resume. I also planned to transfer to a new place, a better and bigger one. And ultimately I also decided to quit a toxic partnership that was not mutually rewarding from the very beginning.

It was my call, and I had to do something to make things better for myself.

All of those I achieved this month. After 7 longs months of waiting and planning and sacrificing, I finally got the things I planned in place. I got to finally quit this pseudo-relationship even long before the start of the second quarter (yeah, it was euthanasia on my part), I have finally transferred to a new home with a nice view and a nice garden outside, and I finally got the job that I was eyeing on since 2008.

More of it was because I prayed REALLY hard for things to change. When I was on my early 20s, I LOATHED change. And then there will come a point when you grow a bit old that you realize that things just NEED to change. Unfortunately for me by then, I was already tied up with a lot of things--- a good job, a nice home near my office, a sex partner.

And I didn’t like it.

I realized that everything I wanted was just outside of my comfort zone, and there is no other way to achieve them but to step out. It was painful, it was expensive, and I had countless sleepless nights.

I think by now I have fully adjusted. I am on field (coz I’m back to doing what I love most--- face to face sales like the one I had with Microsoft before), and I am eating my lunch here at my favorite corner at Starbucks as we speak.

I’m back.