Happy Father's Day, Dad...

Today is Fathers Day and I'm getting pretty emotional what with the fact that this is the very first time in my lifetime that I'm celebrating Fathers Day without my Dad. So it's true--- when someone passes away, a part of you dies as well. Dad was always my guiding light in almost everything. I went outside and took a quick trip to the mall, and Im seeing all these happy families gathered to celebrate their Dad's special day. It's just sad.

It's been 2 weeks since Dad's passing, and I have to be honest, everything still seems a blur. I would like to think that we were already for it, after all, God gave my Dad 6 more months to live before he finally succumbed 2 weeks ago. But we still miss him. I think I miss him more than anybody else in the world. I was closest to my Dad among all his kids, and I was a proud Papa's Boy. We shared almost everything together--- our love for CSI, Bruce Lee, Chinese movies, cooking shows, cooking, eating, Jacky Chan, LA Lakers, Manny Pacquiao. The only thing we didnt shared interest on were girls, but we talk about my relationships every now and then. He know all the men in my life, he accepted me, and I was treated like any normal son at home and I miss that so much. Until now, I still cry in his bed till I fall asleep. His bed still smells like him--- that nice combination of musk, balm, lotion and his favorite perfume.

I know he's shining down on me from heaven, and I still feel the love around me as if he never left. The only painful thing is when I look around and I dont see him anymore. I would practically give anything to see him again, and talk to him and just laugh all day like we used to.

Dad, I miss you so much. And I will hold you in my heart for as long as live. Thank you.

Happy Fathers Day...